Why can't I have NORMAL kids?!?!?!!

Why can't I have NORMAL children? What ever normal really is??!! Why are they special needs kids? Why can't they just fit into mainstream school without a problem. What have I don't wrong for things to be as bad as they are? There must've been something. Why can't the High School threat the big fella as a special needs kid and concentrate on a way to help him thrive rather than suspend him for his behaviour. Why can't they see that suspending him doesn't help him understand? He has no idea what's going on really!! Booting him out of school for 10 days this time will NOT teach him what he needs to learn to change his behaviour and for him to learn to take responsibility for his actions!!

I cannot believe that I have all these questions and yet there is NO real answer that can help me. I am at a total loss. I can't think much further than a day at a time at the moment. I feel like the High School has let me down. That they have not given the big fella a chance. That they have not helped him as much as they could before deciding to wash their hands of him. I was told on Monday afternoon that I should probably phone other High Schools in the area to see if they are prepared to take him. Today I found out from Ellie (whom we had an interview with today) that it is his current High Schools responsibility to do that if they no longer want him at their school. Even in the case of them expelling him (I hope that never happens) they need to find him another school especially because he is under 15 yrs old.

Being a special needs kid they should understand that he needs boundaries and extra support. That throwing him into a new school setting making him sink or swim is not the kind of environment he needs. For any 'normal' kid beginning High School is a scary thing. Just imagine how bad it is for a child with Aspergers Syndrome, ADHD & now epilepsy. If that doesn't make him a special needs kid I don't know what will! I still believe that the Education Department should allow him to have an integration aide. When I tried to get him one back when he was in grade 4 the Special Ed teacher who came to the school to assess him said he didn't even have Aspergers! Well hello!! I have news for you lady! I guess she spoke to him on a really good day!!

Right now all I feel like doing is crying. It's not right that I feel so helpless and unable to do a thing. It's just not fair! Why can't things be NORMAL! I just don't know what to do anymore. What have I dont wrong??