Rollercoaster Ride

Goodness me I've been on a rollercoaster ride ~ AGAIN! One minute I am fine the next I feel empty, worthless, disappointed and it makes me want to cry. If I knew what the triggers were for me to start feeling like this I would try to avoid them or change them somehow but I have no clue as to what sets me off. It's a good thing Mark convinced me to make a doctors appointment for next week. I guess I need to let the doctor know all about my 'adventures' and stress from the past week.
To be honest I think that once the boys are back at school things may settle down a bit as well. At least I am hoping it will.

Even though I have my rollercoaster rides I'm also worried about Mark & the boys. Guess that's natural too. Sometimes I wish that everything would just be 'normal' for a change whatever normal is. I just want things to be easier than they are, for the boys to get along for one day without fighting. Is one day too much to ask for? I don't believe it is but I know that it wont happen. It never will.

I do know one thing even though school will be back next week, it will be an extremely busy week. With three of us having doctor's appointments ~ ALL in different towns!! The big fella has a check up on Wednesday to see how he is going on his new medication. I also need to go up to the High School to let them know that there is a change in all the medical information for the big fella. The little dude is also meant to be starting guitar lessons next week. I have no idea what night that will be on, either Thursday or Friday. I'd hate to think about the amount of driving I'll need to do .. .. I just hope that by the end of the week I don't feel burnt out.

Right now I am thankful that I do feel a little better than I did 40 minutes ago. I know Mark will be relieved with that. He worries so much about me. He shouldn't though. I usually bounce back .. you know like a cat landing on its feet!

Right off topic now .. I'm going to watch one of my favourite movies this weekend, "My Fair Lady" and I'm going to make the boys watch it with me. They will also have to put up with my singing too!! Should be fun! I will NOT let them disappear and watch another movie! Sometimes a Mum has to put her foot down!!!

Golly my I just read back through this .. I even wonder if I should even post this. My thoughts can jump in a million directions at once and I never seem to be able to get what I really want said. Perhaps I am too conservative or frightened to put what I really feel out there for others to read.
I don't know .. .. I just hope that this rollercoaster ride stops soon.