I went into town this morning

I went to see my GP today. Gosh I hated going to see him this time. Mark wasn't able to come along like I had hoped because he wasn't feeling well but that's okay I managed to get everything done that I needed to. Even 'talking' with my doctor.
My main reason for going was that dreaded test us women ALL seem to HATE! It was pap smear time. My goodness I have always hated going for those but I have always done the right thing and made the appointment (eventually :-P) and had the test done. I always worry what the results will be and I hate the two week wait for them. The reason why I hate it is that we have a family history of getting back results that have the doctors telling us we have abnormal cells.
Twice before I have been told this by my doctors. Once before the big fella was born and the other was about 5 years ago. The first time I had to have diathermy (better health.vic.gov.au) which is a heat generating instrument which is used to destroy abnormal cells. It was done under a general anaesthetic thankfully but I remember feeling rather uncomfortable for a few days afterwards. The second time I was just asked to come back in 6 months for another test. Thankfully the results came back normal that time, much to my relief. Also one of my sisters has had abnormal results too. So you can see why I really don't want to go and why I worry about the results.
I also managed to talk to my doctor about my emotional rollercoater ride of the past month. I also told him about how stressful things have been at home with the boys, how the big fella ended up in hospital the other week and has now been diagnosed with epilepsy. You know, it's no wonder I have been so up and down lately. Anyway, I was told that I was no longer allowed to have any depo-provera (depo-provera.drugs.com) shots because that has probably affected my depression & the doctor doesn't want to make it worse. He wont let me go on the pill, he said I am too old. Well he didn't use those words but he may as well have, he sure implied it. It means the same thing regardless of what he said!!

After visiting my GP I did some shopping. Only for groceries. Not for fun! Although maybe one day I'll be able to go shopping for fun. There's a few things I would like to get myself but I always seem to put everything off and get stuff for everyone else. I know that one day I would like to fix my necklace. I haven't worn it for such a long time. The catch has hair caught all through it and it's a bit loose. Maybe one day I'll get it repaired although I have no idea when that will be.

Oh I've lost my train of thought. Not that it matters really. I seem to be doing that quite often lately then I remember it later, well most times anyway.

I think I'll just get off this thing and go have a cuppa. I need it!