Thursday, July 07, 2011

Thankful Thursday

I have been struggling a little today trying to work out what I am thankful for because I am feeling a bit down in the dumps. After I posted yesterday I had an appointment with my GP. We had a really good talk, one of the best we've ever had. We discussed a lot about diabetes [ Dr F. was recently diagnosed too]. We talked about what BGL (they don't call it BSL any more) are too high and what to do about it. What the ideal levels are for fasting BGL and what to aim for when testing after eating. How often he will request certain blood tests etc.

My DE had already written a quick letter to Dr. F stating that she wanted me on medication. That kind of hit me for a six as she never mentioned it to me while I was there. It was like the opportunity for me to even try to get a handle on this thing through diet has been stripped away from me. I just wanted the chance to have a go and see if I can do this without medication. (I started taking it last night & I don't like one of the side effects already but I wont bore you with that).

I know that they are just thinking about my health. It's their job to. That's what they get paid for. It's just that, oh I don't know, it makes it seem like there is no hope. I know I am probably just being silly but that's how I feel. Needless to say that I have had a few tears over this. I know I will be okay with this eventually but for now its in the too hard basket.


So I have struggled a little with what I am thankful for this week but here goes ...
  • that Angus was able to spend time with his bestie last weekend (I think he finally managed to catch up on his sleep)
  • meeting my Diabetes Educator 
  • for finding my vintage knitting/crochet books (I promise to share some photos of my books in tomorrows post)
  • for Mark & the boys giving me hugs when I need them (always a bonus when you're feeling blue)
What are you thankful for this week?


~ Mona said...

I'm glad you found things to be thankful for. I always tell my boys - there is always someone who has it bette than you and there is always someone who has it worse.
~ Mona : )
Mona’s Milestones

Jo-anne "Blossy" said...

You're absolutely right Mona. It's also pretty much what Mark said to me last night. He said that I could've been diagnosed with something worse. So I am least thankful that I wasn't.

PoetessWug said...

I know exactly how you feel about having things stripped out of your control. It would be different if you really felt as bad as the medication seems to say you are, right?!...I know. I don't have diabetes, but I have to take bloog pressure pills and I felt the same way when they told me I had to take, not one, but two different ones a day!! Especially since I hadn't had any problems with my blood pressure until I went to the Hospital on an emergency and was given a drug that I was VERY allergic too that spiked my pressure to a ridiculously dangerous level! Every since then....blood pressure pills! UGH!! I don't like the energy level change now, but I remind myself that Hey!...I could be DEAD! LOL And also I look forward to the near future when no one will say: "I am sick!" {Isaiah 33:24} Hang in there Jo. It'll get better...and until thankful you have people like me to remind you that it'll get better! LOL

Jo-anne "Blossy" said...

Poetess, I know you are right. It will get better. It is really hard to have decisions made for you, especially when you believed you were okay and that you were doing the right thing.
Thank you for reminder. I guess its all to easy to forget about what really is important. I need to shift my focus towards something that will lift my spirits.

I am glad you're okay & sorry that you need to take BP medication. I know how scary it is when you are extremely allergic to something. Mark has so many allergies it can be awfully scary sometimes.

Beverly @ The Buzz said...

I'm way behind on my blog reading. Hope you're feeling better by now. It's quite an adjustment, but one I know you can handle. I'm constantly amazed by your ability to find the joy around you despite the obstacles.

Jo-anne *Blossy* said...

Thank you Beverly. It's a bit of a roller-coaster ride at the moment but I do try and see the bright side of things. I do have more ups than downs though :)