It didn't feel right

Yesterday we didn't end up going to church in the morning. It truly felt weird to be home ~ it just didn't feel right.
Both Mark and I hadn't slept too well the night before and I woke up awfully tired. So I tried to go back to sleep but couldn't so I ended up getting out of bed anyway.
The boys were arguing for most of the morning so we could've gone and being at church it would've separated them for a while so that would've given me a bit of peace. Anyway we ended up going later in the afternoon because it was the final session for General Conference (we get to watch it on video). I don't know what came over the boys, maybe it was the fact that I didn't make them take their medication in the morning or at lunch time but they were horrid. Mark said it might have been because they were the only kids there that they were more noticeable but I somehow don't think that was entirely accurate. After all how can you excuse loud voices and kids that crawl and wriggle under the pews to get to one another?
Oh I know I shouldn't worry so much about them but I do, it's only natural I guess. I just wish they would behave while we were out whether they have taken their meds or not.
I just want a normal family where we can go out and everything just runs smoothly with no hassles or misbehaving. I guess that will never happen.
I'm still glad we went to Church though. It was good to listen to the talks and at times I felt that the speakers were actually talking to me but then again that's happened a lot lately. Things have just been relevant and its totally amazed me.