I put new batteries in the scale this morning so I could weigh myself. They lied to me big time!!! Either that or I just didn't like the numbers I saw on it. I knew I was a big girl but I didn't realise I was that big. Now I wont put down how much I weigh but let's just say it's A LOT.
I wish I didn't get on those darned scales now. It kind of makes sense though that ALL my 'fat' clothes fit better than the smaller sized stuff I have in the cupboard. Its not that the size thing matters because sometimes I don't care about that. It's the fact that Brodie is getting teased at school because of my size and that hurts. It really hurts. In fact the more I think of it the more I want to cry. I don't want the boys to suffer because of me.
Mark said that my size doesn't matter; he is more concerned that it is affecting the rest of my health. I do have high blood pressure. I worry about that too .. .. so maybe I should do something about it. Like anything else I need to be motivated and well I'm just NOT motivated. You know what they say about having to do it for yourself and not for anyone else.... I just don't know if I am ready yet. Although I need to don't I? SO the boys no longer get teased
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