Our Visitors

We had a few visitors last night. Maitland popped in for a visit, I had the feeling that he would come over today, but that was a good thing he's been a bit down in the dumps of late. We also had the missionaries come over too. That's also one of the reasons why I knew Maitland would be here. I'm not sure how I knew but I just knew.

It was great having the missionaries here. We're going through the lessons again from before you are baptised. Mark and I felt we needed to revisit these lessons to give us a better perspective on things and to also refresh our memories. After all its been over 10 years since either of us were baptised. I also thought it would be a very good thing for the big fella to hear. I really would love it if he were to be baptised. The little dude too come to think of it.
The big fella had such a hard time concentrating. In fact at times he was just down-right silly!! But that is nothing new for him! He tends to be super silly when we have visitors. I became a bit annoyed with his behaviour while they missionaries were here. I know I shouldn't be but I was. I guess I need to learn more patience.
While we were going through the lesson I noticed that the missionaries looked more at Maitland and the big fella. But I'm thinking that was because they hadn't heard they lessons before.

We've arranged with to have the lessons after Church on Sundays. Mainly because we live so far from away from the ward and the missionaries only get a certain amount of kilometres to travel each month. And frankly they would use a lot to come and visit us more frequently. So rather than monopolize their travel allotment we agreed that it would be much better to have the lessons straight after church.

Mark was saying how he would love to baptize the boys. In fact, I think that would be absolutely awesome! I would never have dreamt that someone I know so well would be able to baptize them. I can just imagine it and it would be such an honour if the boys chose to be baptized and to have it done by Mark.

I've been so worried of late with how I've been feeling. How I feel like I am a hypocrite and that I really don't deserve to be happy or to have things go my way. I hate feeling this way but sometimes it feels like I just can't help it! Mark even threatened to phone/email Diva and tell her exactly how I have been. Anyway, Mark & I had a really good talk, well he spoke & I listened. He made so much sense, saying how everyone deserves help (I still believe otherwise). I still have that thing in my head about not accepting or rather not asking for help because it shows weakness. Silly I know but that is how I have always felt & I need to stop thinking and feeling like this. However to me its valid even if it makes no sense to anyone else because it is how I feel and regardless of what people say your feelings are real and valid because they belong to you.
And even with all my faults & problems Mark accepts me as I am. Gosh I love him to bits! I am so lucky to have him in my life. I'm so glad he is part of our family.