I Hate My GP

I've decided that I HATE my GP and I NEVER want to go back and see him. Only trouble is that there are NO other doctors that I know of who will bulk bill. I cannot afford the $30 - $40 to visit a doctor every time I need to go! It's NOT fair! I'm just so upset right now! Even the 20 - 25 minute drive home didn't help me cool off!

I suppose I had better explain what happened. My appointment was for 9:45 this morning and I arrived about 5 minutes early. Mark was meant to come along this time but he didn't. It hurt a little that he didn't but he did mention that some 'ME' time would be good especially since the big fella is home AGAIN because of ANOTHER suspension!! This time he is suspended for 10 DAYS!! I am so NOT impressed with that. What does the school think they are doing when they suspend him for so long? Do they honestly think that having this much time off school is beneficial to him??? Do they think that he understands what it means to be away from school for so long? Gosh I had better get off this school soap box or I'll forget what I was talking about in the first place.

Back to the part where Mark said that some 'ME' time would be a good thing. I could see his point. I could use some big fella free time. He is pretty demanding with our time when he is away from school. Not a constant demand but it's enough to stop you from being able to do what you want during the day. ( for example ~ organise Easter eggs etc). So I took the little dude off to school and drove straight into town for my appointment.
Well the doctor was LATE as usual. No apology for making me wait for 40 minutes! How rude is that? At least the paediatrician says sorry if he is running late! I thought it was just common courtesy!

So I am now in his pokey little room. He said how are you? Well der I am here to see you what do you think? I didn't say it out loud but I did think it! I have no idea why I felt so annoyed, well I wasn't really annoyed at that stage.. .. that comes later. He tells me that the pap smear was normal okay so that's a good thing. ALL that worry I've been doing over that was for naught. So I though okay I'll do the right thing and tell him about my arm and how it has been sore for the last two weeks. He looks at it. Presses on my arm and makes me try to lift my hand. It hurt a little but not much. Then he holds my arm differently and makes me try move it in a different direction. That hurt for sure. Then he said oh its just tendonitis .. Tennis elbow! Well that explains a lot!! (like the sarcasm???) He then said take some nurofen it will help! Sheesh! What a nice sympathetic doctor I have!!

I also told him about the extra stress I have been under due to the big fella's suspension and having him home again. How he has spent more time at home this school term than he has at school. I told him how I worry so much since he is getting such a big boy that with this aggression he has that he might punch someone out and send them flying across the room and perhaps that someone may be me. I told him I worry about anything and everything. I worry about everyone else except me .. well mostly. My GP didn't say much. he nodded his head.

Then my GP makes some comment about a care plan. Didn't say what it was for but that we needed to do one. He doesn't say much just sits at his computer clicking on all these buttons. Says something like you lost any weight? NO was my reply but I wouldn't have a clue if I have or not I don't get on the scales at home or anywhere else for that matter! He took my blood pressure which was in my belief LOW 107/78 either the reading was wrong or its just extra low. Never had a reading that low before but it may explain why I get dizzy of late. Not that I told the GP. He doesn't need to know everything!!

Where was I? .. oh yes the stupid care plan that he was organising. He said you been to counselling .. UM NOT for years I said. He says nothing to that. Then he said you walk? Not really I replied. He said you must walk. Hmmm ok maybe ... He asks you eat healthy? I said YES of course I do .. how can you not when you are on such a strict budget that it doesn't allow for buying chips, chocolate, biscuits, etc. I explained to the GP that the boys get ticked off that I no longer buy them all this junk food for them to eat. I don't cook in fat or lard. We dry fry and use the health grill, we eat loads of fresh stuff when we can get it. He said your last cholesterol .. was that good?? YES I said!!! I even told him I quit smoking but do you think he said way to go or anything. NO he said nothing. You'd think he would've at least say that's wonderful or something! Gosh I could use a cigarette right now!! But I wont go smoke or anything!

Any way he prints this stupid care plan. Hands it to me and says hang on to that! Well hello what is it for??? What am I meant to do with it? I was so ticked off when I got home I showed Mark and then screwed it up and threw it in the bin.
Oh I know you're probably thinking what was the problem with that? That wasn't so bad. But you had to be there. For your Doctor to not show any proper concern or care just isn't right. Am I just another number to him?? Just another name on the computer screen?? Am I just being silly?? I no longer know what to think. With everything that has been happening I just don't know anymore.